Desire To Do What I Hate
My palms are sweaty, knees weak, arms are heavy, there's vomit on my gi already, mom's spaghetti. I’m nervous, but on the surface I look calm and ready to drop bombs, but I keep on forgetting what I planned out, the whole crowd goes so loud. I reach to make…
Don’t Wall Yourself In
I'll begin with setting some context. I was pretty over weight with plenty of excuses spanning from kids, family, depression, work, time, etc. In no way am I diminishing these reasons since we each have our own battles to fight and using whatever resources at hand. For example, depression. At…
Enjoying the process…
Something earned is always appreciated. I was taught a new technique earlier this month. Well, it's an armbar so it's not really a "new" technique, but a different approach to it. After seeing this, thousands of synapsis' fired off in my brain linking positions and other moves together. A truly…
Perspective…
I wish to document more often. I need to make an effort to make it happen at least once a week. Perhaps I will dedicate a time slot for this. I think about dumping all the thoughts that rattle in my brain. Writing it down also gives me a bizarre…
“Anger, fear, aggression; the dark side of the Force are they.”
Hmmm. It's been awhile since I've posted. Been busy with the holidays, but I've been consistent with BJJ. It's still addicting, alluring, and fun. I've still been focused on "earning position". For example, I'd purposely let my partner get top position on me and I have to earn my way…